Posts Tagged ‘follow’
A friend of mine at church wrote a book last year and is going on speaking tours. She is a talented writer and speaker. First she was a speaker at church and felt the nudging from God to write a book, so she did. She followed what God wanted her to do. Now she is feeling the nudge to go on more speaking tours and to write more. So again, she is following God’s will. I am so happy for her, and so sad to see her go and so … envious … that she follows where she is led and I don’t. Why don’t I follow? I am led to write a blog, to share what is happening, good and the bad times from my family so that others can read it, and either get inspiration for their own lives or to see what to do or not to do, based on what we have done. This should be easy for me. I love to talk, I like to write, my family has a lot going on, especially lately, so there is a lot to write about, I can now write on my computer, my nook or my phone and with the kids now being older, I do have a lot of free time t write. But, even with all of that, I don’t post every day, and sometimes not even every week or month. All day, every day I write posts in my head, and sometimes take a lot of pictures to go with my posts, but these posts don’t make it to the blog. Many nights I sit down on the couch and don’t get back up, or we put in a movie that we have or a library movie and I watch it. I could write my posts while we watch a movie, but usually I just watch the movie with my kids. I say to myself that if I am typing, I am not really with the kids, but the kids are on their phones or tablets while they watch the movie.
I want to start posting more, every day and learn to follow God’s will for me. It is odd that I don’t follow where God is leading me. The times that I have followed Him have been truly rewarding. I am not sure if it’s because I am afraid to fail and to not be able to fix the new problems that are now created, or if it’s because I am afraid to succeed. What new areas would I now be in if things started going well, could I manage in a positive thriving environment or would it be too new to me and I couldn’t take care of my family? My kids say that I have lived my life scared. I don’t want to be scared any more.
What scares you? What are you doing to get past the fear? Who or what is your inspiration?