Archive for November, 2015
3 gifts astonishing:
the sun rise, a smile from an old friend and all of the dishes done…
It has been surprisingly warm here for the end of November. Every day I try to say to myself, are there any outside jobs that you need to get done before the cold and snow get here? A few days ago I did some yard work. We have a Japanese maple tree that it is about ten years old and is about four feet high and about five feet wide. It gets a lot of grass and weeds growing under it in the summer. Since it grows right on the ground, it is impossible to mow under and once the leaves come in in the spring and it is difficult to put compost under. We solve this problem using cereal boxes. They can be opened up and laid flat. The side with the picture is put toward the ground, then if the compost doesn’t cover it, the cereal box picture isn’t showing in my yard. I put down many layers, if we have a lot of cereal boxes and they don’t need to go around any other plants. They are thick so that grass and weeds can’t grow through them, and if something does get through, I add another box and put more compost on them. The compost helps to have the box break down and holds the box in place in any wind. If these boxes are added now or in the spring before the leaves grow in. it really helps this plant to look its best and also the Japanese Maple won’t need to compete with the grass and weeds for water, and the cereal boxes and the compost help to keep the water that is in the ground from evaporating. Most of the box will break down during the year.
A friend of mine at church wrote a book last year and is going on speaking tours. She is a talented writer and speaker. First she was a speaker at church and felt the nudging from God to write a book, so she did. She followed what God wanted her to do. Now she is feeling the nudge to go on more speaking tours and to write more. So again, she is following God’s will. I am so happy for her, and so sad to see her go and so … envious … that she follows where she is led and I don’t. Why don’t I follow? I am led to write a blog, to share what is happening, good and the bad times from my family so that others can read it, and either get inspiration for their own lives or to see what to do or not to do, based on what we have done. This should be easy for me. I love to talk, I like to write, my family has a lot going on, especially lately, so there is a lot to write about, I can now write on my computer, my nook or my phone and with the kids now being older, I do have a lot of free time t write. But, even with all of that, I don’t post every day, and sometimes not even every week or month. All day, every day I write posts in my head, and sometimes take a lot of pictures to go with my posts, but these posts don’t make it to the blog. Many nights I sit down on the couch and don’t get back up, or we put in a movie that we have or a library movie and I watch it. I could write my posts while we watch a movie, but usually I just watch the movie with my kids. I say to myself that if I am typing, I am not really with the kids, but the kids are on their phones or tablets while they watch the movie.
I want to start posting more, every day and learn to follow God’s will for me. It is odd that I don’t follow where God is leading me. The times that I have followed Him have been truly rewarding. I am not sure if it’s because I am afraid to fail and to not be able to fix the new problems that are now created, or if it’s because I am afraid to succeed. What new areas would I now be in if things started going well, could I manage in a positive thriving environment or would it be too new to me and I couldn’t take care of my family? My kids say that I have lived my life scared. I don’t want to be scared any more.
What scares you? What are you doing to get past the fear? Who or what is your inspiration?
3 gifts in community:
my church friends, my volunteer friends and the people that I meet each day at stores and gas stations…
3 gifts preparing:
getting the kids ready to go out into the world, getting ready for Christmas and getting ready for the New Year…
3 gifts ugly-beautiful:
all of the kids muddy shoes, the laundry and the dishes…